I saw the train go by again today.
I remember all the times I sat at my desk and watched it roll along, wondering when it was my turn, when it would take me away…
How far I have come!
No longer do I feel misplaced, unfit, unseen… no longer do I swim in an urge to run away… no longer am I alone… no longer am I the only one of my kind!
I have LOVE— pure, unconditional, true Love. A Love that has not wavered since the moment it revealed itself, and, as a result, has completely melted a lifetime’s worth pile of conditioning, misthinking, and pain. For the first time in my life, I am safe. I am secure. I am Loved— without fear of punishment or it being held over me with threats of withdrawal!
I have CHILDREN— sweet, accepting, caring children who demonstrate to me another sort of Love I have never even imagined, much less experienced!
I have FATHERHOOD— the most humbling and beautiful experience I could have EVER asked for. The opportunity to create an environment for my family that my own father did not, and the ability to examine his actions and my childhood experience from the other side, rewriting my views and emotions surrounding it.
If such Grace is given to ME, then there is most certainly hope for you.
The mere fact you are living and breathing deserves my honor… my respect… my Love.
And how else can it be?
And now… as Melissa and I prepare to be married in the eyes of every institution… I release all before… I banish all conditioning, all treatments that do not cherish Who I Am— including actions and thoughts from myself… And I relax into the security… the wisdom… the power that is mySelf… and my Reality.
And so it is.